My Face

They tell me what I should be
And show me what the world would see
If I were perfect in their ways
And everything that's lovely stays
Oh, I could keep my self in line
All I’ve to do is spend the time
To make myself be everything
Yet form in me the perfect ring
But rings are broken all the time
But hey, can I not be the sign?
That all is well, and all is right
And that our good side is in sight
With shiny eyes, and wavy hair
And that sexy little stare
Of something torn within my soul
The one thing most cannot keep whole
But I’d have to hold my tongue at times
But when I talk, everything rhymes
I must love myself in a way
And let the girl inside me stay
But something breaks, and won’t come back
That one last straw, the final snap
And I feel ugly, for I always have been
And see that I am not the maiden
Oh skin! Please die and fall away
That woman inside, she must stay
But then my old life runs away
And I feel ugly every day
Don’t give up! Scrape and scrape away
At everything I hate today
And stare at my expanse of hell
Praying that my smile will sell
Cursing what I am with out
And die inside without a doubt
I am the ugliest they see
For they will never look at me
And say, I love her more than day!
I have to have her always stay
But they cast me away away
I sleep until night, and then wake in a rush
Scratching away at my blush
Crying at the empty house
Feeling smaller than a mouse
Killing everything inside
Where is the girl that had to hide?
She left I feel, for a better place
And a land that’s filled with silk and lace
If I were she I wouldn’t stay
I would go so far away
That all that’s ugly couldn’t find me
Couldn’t enter, couldn’t bind me
But I know it would always follow
From yesterday, into tomorrow
Feeding on my empty insides
Killing the girl I had to hide
I stare out the window, awaiting the dawn
Then scrub at my face, until it is gone.