What I say

I tell you that I love you
But I don’t
I tell you that I’ll see you
But I wont
I tell you ‘no’
But I do what I want
I tell you that I’m ok
But I’m not
And when the day is over
I just cry
And though you are my cover
You just sigh
Taking looks at me
Across the room
Your frustration is a sea
And one of gloom
For when it’s done
The world is still a mess
I want to run
But just take off my dress
And kill the thoughts
Boiling to the brim
Tie tight my knots
And live a life of sin
And make you smile for me
But not for us
Drowning in the sea
Of all your fuss
I kill myself
And hate you because
My soul’s on a shelfThough that’s the way it was