And You're Not

I stand here
Looking over the edge
For you
But you said you wouldn’t be there
And you’re not
And I said I wanted you there
And you’re not
And I told myself I loved you
And I do
You used to say you loved me
And you did
You say now, you don’t love me
And you don’t
I don’t see you over there
And you are not
And I miss you more than life
But you don’t care
I fucked it up
Its over
You’re not there
I hold my head in hands
And scream, “You must be there.”
I scream, I scream so loud
But still
You’re not